We found out late last week that my wonderful husband got
the internship of his dreams working with college students in a ministry called
Reformed University Fellowship. The boy and I have been talking about this
internship and the possibility of doing it since we first started dating. It’s
crazy that those dreams and ambitions are finally becoming a reality and I’m so
excited for him! I’m excited to see him live out his dream and do what God has
blessed him to do. At the same time, my little type a anxious soul is crying
out.
Where are we moving? What am I going to do? Will he raise
all of the funds we need in order to go? Will the campus pastor like us? Will
we find friends? Do I want to still pursue marketing as my career? Do I want to
go back to school and get a master’s? And the biggest one of all…what am I
going to do without my immediate family five minutes from me at all times?
I know I’ve been spoiled. I know most people don’t have
their whole family available 24/7, but I do. I’ve been spoiled by Sunday lunch
weekly with my parents and siblings. I can call my mom for dinner and say, “what’s
cooking” and be at her house within five minutes sitting at the table. Ben and my
brother can go climbing together while my sister and I go to the downtown Tea
Room. This is normal life. Spending Christmas with my family is a foreign
concept because every day is Christmas over here!
And I’m going to miss it (so, so much).
I’m sure I’ll be processing so much more about this change
over the coming months, but the reality of being away from my family is quickly
setting in. I want to soak up every minute I have with my family now because August
is going to be here so soon! So father, mother, brother, and sister, bear with
me as I try to spend every waking moment with you over the next five months.
August is going to be here so soon.
