i took a little break from blogging partly because life happened and partly because I was having trouble finding the positives of living in texas. i missed family, i missed the seasons and the landscape, and i missed the culture (i still do), but a christmas visit and time with family refreshed my spirit and gave me fresh eyes to see some of the good in corpus, or at least in knowing the lord has us here for a reason.
one of my biggest struggles with this move was in finding friends. i am a social person by nature and need people in my life. transitioning from a desk job to work-from-home job at the same time as this move, caused me to feel very isolated. i needed to find friends quickly, but there seemed to be no avenue in which to do so. no one tells you that finding friends outside of college takes work.
we took for granted our support system in lynchburg, and making new friends took more intentional work than ben or i had anticipated. we no longer lived in community with people or were forced to go to class or work with the same people every day. we moved away from everything that was familiar to us and then had to work hard to find friends.
looking back now, i can see that the lord was faithful, but those first six months were filled with a lot of doubt, fear, and loneliness.
i still wonder what the lord's purpose was in sending ben and i to corpus christi. it's hard and uncomfortable to be in a place when you feel like there is no purpose. it's easy to get stuck in a web of questioning and doubt. i know, because that's where i've been. i've been stuck doubting the lord's purpose in this move. questioning his reasons (i laugh just writing that. who am i to question his reasons?).
so here i am. this post is pretty scatter brained, but i feel like i'm coming out of the fog. i've allowed myself to wallow for too long. today is a new day, and i'm going to make it a point to find the positives in corpus.
it's a season of new beginnings. all around, nature is testifying to new life. this weekend we celebrate easter, and the rising of our savior from the dead.
thank goodness for new beginnings.
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